I love you my baby kucing

I’m abit ashamed to admit that my relationships never lasted more than 9 months. Yes,i 've never had a one year anniversary. This was partly due to the fact that i never really did take any of my past relationships seriously. You see, i treated guys like disposable tissues. It's like when i’ve had enough use of one, i get rid of it then move to another fresh batch of tissues.

It was just recently that i started to take my relationships seriously. What changed me? I don’t know... maybe it was that one relationship that left me devastated in the end? Or maybe it’s because I’ve matured enough to stick with only one guy. Or maybe I’ve met the right one?

I’ve been hurt by my past relationships and so i maintain an air of fear and doubt about what the future holds for me. I’m just afraid that anything in the future will be just as scary, will end as badly, will be as fear filled and will hurt me more and cause me to become bitter and cynical. So now I’m in a relationship with this one great guy whom I’m so obsessively in love with. Although our relationship feels quite secured and stable, i still have this cloud of fear lingering in my mind. I’m worried that he will leave me for someone else. I’m worried that he might get bored of me. God I’m truly scared of the work of karma. I’ve hurt too many people in the past, there is a chance that someone might hurt me again in the future.

So now 9 months have passed by, I celebrated the passing of each month with a long ‘phewww’. Tonight marked the 10th month of my relationship with my current boyfriend. So the relationship I’m in right now is by far the longest and the best relationship ever. He is an amazing guy and has stuck by me through the worst times of my life. We’re still going strong and I’m absolutely in love with him.

Baby, happy 10th monthsary syg. And i love u so much.

p/s: If it's not so much to ask...Can you be mine forever...please?